Loneliness

Loneliness is when you know the whole world depends on you and you have no one to depend on!

Lasyanga

Hmm…I thought this was an interesting quote….I got (more like stole ) it from Ankit…haha….THE BEST LACK ALL CONVENTIONS WHILE THE WORST ARE FULL OF PASSIONATE INTENSITY…This is especially true about me!!!

Oh guess wat…I won my second debate..yayay!!...7-2 votes….I was soo happy…The topic was Resolve that grades should be taken out of our schools…I was the negative saying they shouldn’t be….fun stuff…neway, I turned in all my essays and I still have soo many things to do for next week…I don’t really see the point of a break for thanksgiving cos Ill be doing homework neway… I have 3 essays and a speech presentation due on Tuesday….arrgghhh…school…Wat is it good for?? Absolutely Nothin!! Say it again!!

Oh I saw Veer Zaara…First of all the theater, it was sold out at 8 when we went so we went at 10 and guess wat…sooo many people….gosh…it was just surprisingly crowded…..Anyway, for those of u who are Indian….go watch the movie…I personally guarantee quality and timeliness….It stars Shahrukh ofcourse…(why else would I watch a hindi movie?? I cannot sit still to watch for 2 ½ hours…dude… ) It is probably the best movie all year long…not that I have seen many, mind u…but still…the story was interesting…a little far fetched with the love part of it….but that’s y its fantasy right….an illusion…The songs are amazing…the scenes and the quality was just superb….I love the music…its one of the most deepest and darkest ever..!! The acting was just right and not too much like most hindi movies are nowadays….wat the movie possessed as someone put it is Soul….it was accurately developed with the right plots of love for people and your country, touching dialogues, and challenging performances. Shahrukh ofcourse is the triumph of the movie undoubtedly…it is extremely hard to enact with such maturity and ease in this role and nobody else can pull it off with soo much grace. and finally while I expected Dazzling and Extravagant like Devdas…I got Simple, innocent and beautiful. !!! So run to the nearest theater by making time!!

Oh I performed for a classical piece two weeks ago..Its called Lasyanga….and its all instrumental with fast music…never got a chance to put up the pics…it was quite good…very synchronized…I am proud of all my dance girls…they are amazingly good ….neway, here are the pics…

Thats...Ashwini, Ashwathy, Me, and Supriya

Myself while getting ready and Netra (my dance teacher's daughter...isnt she adorable??? )

Pardon my moods, they are sooo inconsistent with wat is goin on that it is all a jigsaw puzzle up in my mind....As Nietzsche says, every strong person has his own strength to figure out things!...Hopefully, we all are that strong!!

Well-Wishers

It is beautiful outside today…as if the world was cleansed overnight…by…by…well-wishers….to free it from the rusting glimpses of the past… the crisp cold air on your face cuts through skin to make you feel….feel that indeed you are human and you feel everything no matter how well you deny it….the fresh smell of rain reminds you of the forsaken temperance of life….the one you are desperately trying to avoid…in order to let go of emotions swirling in your heart….I love the silence after it rains and the sky is so vivid and makes you have a tingling feeling that the sky is so close that you can touch it…it is so calm and so safe that nobody could interrupt this perfect feeling....this longing....The sounds of the wind is a reminder of life….rejuvenating your interest in life if not a lifetime, then for a mere sparing minute….saying that you can close your eyes and mind from feelings but never your heart...

Motivation

You know I was talkin to someone and they said life is soo unfair…I wish I was dead…It suddenly stuck me odd that so many people use living and dying as opposites….but are they really? I mean if you think about it…giving birth and dying are opposites…and sometimes you can be living life and still feel dead….so what is life opposite to….nothin….its not opposite to fantasy cos that is reality…maybe Perish…like nonexistent…but then again you can be existent and still feel numb to the core so you are then ofcourse feeling dead….and then what stuck me as worse is that love and hate in a sense are not opposites….cos you can love someone soo much and still hate them…in a metaphoric sense ofcourse…

So what did I infer from all this…that we r merely using semantics to express something that is inexpressive…cos using these words just for the heck of using them is not right…without understanding the true meaning or the context…so we are not really expressing anything using language….

The best way of knowing how anyone feels is understanding their body language…you study people’s behavior patterns and figure out what makes them tick or worse wat makes them unhappy…Each of us behave differently dependin on our gender, I.Q, backgrounds, people around us and so on….each of us has a reason for reacting and behaving the way we usually do…Motivation for doing the things we do….It is human nature to hide our secrets…It is also human nature to be curious…

What motivates you to read this entry fully?

What motivates you to talk to me?

What motivates you to get up in the morning?

That is wat I am figurin out....MOTIVATION!!