Friends

Hmm...Where do I start? ...ok so last night I talked to Rohit...he was tellin me how I should not stop talkin to my friends just cos they made new friends...I am talkin about Ani...(so basically I dont wanna let Anusha think otherwise about how I talk to Ani alot...so I stopped talkin at all lately...it will help their relationship..and that's wat I want for my best friend...)

neway, I let Rohit influence my decision..he was absolutely right...so i called Ani this mornin....BAD IDEA....Anusha picked up...and she said some pretty horrible things ...umm...Ani doesnt know...he wont know...I would neva tell him...so ne1 readin this...plz dont...!! Neway, she commented on...how I am very insecure and so need to torment someone...(hmm...maybe true)...and that I should realize by now that Ani has a whole life that doesnt have me in it...so basically I need to move over...cos she is his best friend, his family and his love...wow...I am glad he got a girl who takes such good care of him! ...and that if I keep talkin to him, he will talk about me or talk to me...which she doesnt particularly like at this point...she also warned me that friends should be like friends...distant...esp girls...she said maybe in US things r like that but not in India....(true..)...well, it was still ....i dont know...Hurtful...!! Its fine though...

I dont want this to be like a sad entry.....hahahha....I let that get to be the whole day...like literally...nothin went straight...and I kept feelin like crap....and then I went to dance class and it was exhaustin...I kept forgettin the expression part and that is soo annoyin...I am good at the fast pace stuff...when it comes to showin stuff with hands or somethin Im like god...!! Preeti kept askin me if Im ok...which is stupid cos professionally nothin should get to u while u r dedicatin ur energy towards somethin...hahaha....but I guess I let it...even though I kept sayin I wont..! it was just a shock...I will get used to it...sooooooooon