Kids

Gosh....its one of those umm...Wat do i say days...

So I went to those kids practice right....we practiced and wat not...it was fun like always....they r interestin kids...all boys...10...always wantin to play ball when they get a break...some love dancin but dont wanna show it...cos its 'not the kewl thing to do'..lol....some r kiddish...some talk over their age (intelligence)....I have fun with them...!

Then we had dinner right...cos today it was arranged and stuff...b4 dinner...the parents make all the kids like sit around me...and start takin pics...and they start givin me a card, flowers, and start thankin me...i was like oh no...dont do this to me...!! ...cos basically I am teachin for fun...I enjoy it...I love dancin...and helpin kids dance...if they like it...!! so these kids dont have to thank me and stuff...the card was filled with all their signatures and writings...and this balloon had thank u with my name on it...so sweet ....i still felt like they shouldnt have done it...cos it starts to become formal and stuff...and even though its sweet...i feel like they r obligated...u know...

WELL I DONT KNOW...neway...haha...I think too much about stuff....! I have a huge exam on thursday...It will be stressful...I hate broadcastin laws...!! they r just too many of them....I have those 100 cases to memorize again...haha...Ankit will enjoy askin me how many r u done with...!! let me get to that...lol

Friends

Hmm...Where do I start? ...ok so last night I talked to Rohit...he was tellin me how I should not stop talkin to my friends just cos they made new friends...I am talkin about Ani...(so basically I dont wanna let Anusha think otherwise about how I talk to Ani alot...so I stopped talkin at all lately...it will help their relationship..and that's wat I want for my best friend...)

neway, I let Rohit influence my decision..he was absolutely right...so i called Ani this mornin....BAD IDEA....Anusha picked up...and she said some pretty horrible things ...umm...Ani doesnt know...he wont know...I would neva tell him...so ne1 readin this...plz dont...!! Neway, she commented on...how I am very insecure and so need to torment someone...(hmm...maybe true)...and that I should realize by now that Ani has a whole life that doesnt have me in it...so basically I need to move over...cos she is his best friend, his family and his love...wow...I am glad he got a girl who takes such good care of him! ...and that if I keep talkin to him, he will talk about me or talk to me...which she doesnt particularly like at this point...she also warned me that friends should be like friends...distant...esp girls...she said maybe in US things r like that but not in India....(true..)...well, it was still ....i dont know...Hurtful...!! Its fine though...

I dont want this to be like a sad entry.....hahahha....I let that get to be the whole day...like literally...nothin went straight...and I kept feelin like crap....and then I went to dance class and it was exhaustin...I kept forgettin the expression part and that is soo annoyin...I am good at the fast pace stuff...when it comes to showin stuff with hands or somethin Im like god...!! Preeti kept askin me if Im ok...which is stupid cos professionally nothin should get to u while u r dedicatin ur energy towards somethin...hahaha....but I guess I let it...even though I kept sayin I wont..! it was just a shock...I will get used to it...sooooooooon

Main Hoon Na

yay!! India won the whole series..isnt that awesome...and no manan there wasnt ne crappy match fixin stuff!! u didnt even watch the games dude...!! lol...neway..so yeah! they won!

oh my god..Ani made this new xanga thingy...its like pretty good except fot the background..please change it..I cant c it!! aarrgghh..

wat else? yeah life is goin..i mean pretty much the same...still hazy!! Oh my sis is goin to have a baby... I am soo excited...hopefully its a baby boy...i was talkin to my jeej..and he's like 'im talkin to her and she's great..hopefully nothin goes wrong'...so sweet...he's like soo worried..!

umm i dont know when Main Hoon Na is comin out...i know that sounds desperate but i really wanna c it..!! so who wants to come watch it with me?? let me know...cos i want to go on the first day..

neway...ill update later...thats all i remember right now..!!

The Strangers’ quest of desire

Ani wrote this poem...long ago..i just found it the other day..its pretty amazin!! read away...

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The Strangers’ quest of desire

Up there, in the night sky

The speckles are filled

But not the hearts,

Since the stars don’t shimmer down.

And there lies the truth – the truth of life!

Under the eccentric sky,

Love may be a stranger,

To the stranger of this eternity.

He could see the glimmering sparks;

Sparks of the stars in her eyes.

They both could feel

The lingering love in the air;

Hovering about like French aroma.

Then their eyes met and

The cardiac muscles beat!

He could see the novice;

The enduring spirit only once!

And she turned and disappeared

Into the deep dark night

Never to return forever!

He stood there still.

Wondering what to do.

And opened his eyes.

Ha, was it a dream?

No! There stands the Spark!

Telugu New Year

aahh...so India won!! isnt that great...its all cos of one person..Rahul Dravid...!! dude...he's so overshadowed by sachin..its not even funny...oh for those who dont know...Dravid is hot!! he's also very talented and great cricketer..but Laif helped him too...so yeah!!

Neway...today is UGADI..(Telugu new year)...so Happy New Year!..ask me about it if u r interested...and i'll tell u y new year is in late march!!

Oh I went to dance class today...3 hrs worth of dancin...it was exhaustin...like really...but we made up the new steps...and changed some others...to match all 3 of us who r performin on 24th...its me, Sangeeta, and Supriya....should be fun!!

My dad is here this weekend...haha...I had loads of fun!! I realized I missed him soooo much...just talkin to him u know...I made him watch Kal Ho Na Ho...that was a huge accomplishment..not to mention the 1000 comments I had to listen to...hahah...still wasnt bad though....neway, but the sad thing I didnt get ne work done...I have 2 exams and 2 essays on tuesday...I just might die...haha...! we'll c....

umm...my life is very much....umm....clashed right now...everythin is just wierd...like soo mixed up and jumbled...!! I dont know how to sort it out...its all a big mystery...hmm...maybe i'm lettin my imagination run wild but I feel its not goin to be straight for a while from now!! its that instinct u have about things...

Impossible

Ok...so Im impossible!! there is nothin new in that...I've always been this way...so y notice that now? not to mention point it out as a bad thing...oh well, I dont know! I cant be losin sleep over comments like this...shows vulnerability!! so yeah...Dude, Im tired of writin these essays...its like Im doin them foreva...I dont know when I'll ever get done..I updated my resume today...it sucks!! hahah...

Oh my leg still hurts...more like my ankle...ok so we were walkin bak from marta..and I was lookin at Bhargava's cell...(cos its soo awesome...mine sucks)...neway, and I didnt c the steps or wateva...and stepped right...I twisted my ankle and literally went down...it was really embarrassin...it hurt like crazy..i almost had tears...Bhargava was like sit sit, can u walk?... neway..so when I move it alot it hurts...it will go away...soon! i have dance so it has to go away...haha...

I was talkin to archith and he's graduatin in May...sooo lucky...I want to graduate too...oh i talked to preeti...we came up with a cool idea for my performance...we decided I and sangeeta would alternate...that should be fun...yay!!! neway...i'll update later in the night or somethin...

Ani

pshukriya: Tum itna jo muskura rahe ho
pshukriya: kya ghum hai jisko chupa rehe ho
prave84: wat r u talkin about?
pshukriya: it is true, I want to know
pshukriya: aankho mein namee, haseen laboo par
pshukriya: kya haal hain, kya dikha rahi ho
pshukriya: this is your song I name it Praveena
prave84: shut up…u don’t know wat u r sayin…go sleep!
pshukriya: ask anyone they will say it too
pshukriya: you put that normal face in front of everyone
prave84: bye ani!! Night…sweet dreams
pshukriya: fine stubborn girl, I will get back to it

neway, wierd kid...Ani doesnt know wat he is sayin..i just thought the song was interestin...but he didnt tell me wat it was...if ne1 knows let me know...oh well..I lik this font...haha...its kewl...so today I was doin research and writin essays...sooooo borin!!...and it was beautiful outside after spring break ended...aarrgghh...so wrong!....neway, i was talkin to Sri today....supposedly he's my dad best friend's son...the think is i dont remember him...he does...small world after all..hes nice...he told me his whole biography even his girlfriend...haha...very sweet couple!! I was listenin to Main Hoon Na...cant wait to c it...shahrukh... neway...Hmm thats a wierd screenname....I wonder why someone would put that???!!! hmmmmmmmm......

Thoughts

Yay!! India won by 5 runs...Rahul Dravid is amazin!! simply amazin...99 runs...damn 1 more would be a century...neway for those who dont know wat this is...Its Cricket...a sport very much like baseball...the game is between India and Pakistan...I watched it all night last night without sleepin!! Hell ya, it was worth it!

this mornin a skin reaction happened cos of this new lotion I bought...it was awful...I cant do this girly business sometimes..ouf!

Oh I went to this International festival in Meadowcreek...pretty neat..all the different cultures...I love the Vietnamese Fashion Show especially the lavender dress, I want it!! (remember Bhagrav )...and the step dance...wow!... There was a Indian Fashion show too..umm yeah...It was...umm...yeah u get the point

neway, umm...Starbucks was AWESOME!....

I went to a bday party....lol...that was alright...loads of girl talk!! the most bizzarre thing happened...ok so I was tellin Aarti and others about this guy who was soooo gay!! like dressed wierd and tryin to act like he's all that!....and Sravanti was like yeah I know who u r talkin about and stuff...when I heard my dad speakin in my phone...so supposedly my keypad got pressed to my dad's no in my handbag and my dad heard our conversation about the guy...hahah....it was soooo wierd!! (Indian parents r not as comfortable with that talk)

neway...Hmm...thinkin....hmm hmm....well night...sweet dreams I guess...

Life

aarrrghhh...I hate life!! its soo unfair...nothin is as it seems...and there is no say wat might happen in the future...and that frustrates me..!! first of all, this friend of mine was dumped and then she has like a health prob...i feel soooooo bad!! she is one of the nicest people ever...and she never gives up!! and that guy...such an idiot! sooo not worth her...and then all these other things...I dont know!! everythin is sooo wrong...i wish there is some way everything becomes ok...but it doesnt...and believin in God doesnt seem to be workin..so should i give up?? take the easy way out and not worry...just stop carin?? I dont know! I dont know the answers for nethin...y is this happenin?? ouf!! .......Today. i weighted all the pros and cons......head- one thing.....heart- the other.......which do you follow?....I'm tired.......Many people talk to me..I dont talk to them......i argue......i fight......i'm miserable.........I hate life........life hates me.....It's not all good.......does someone want my life?? take it!!...Please

Importance of Interdependence

Today...nothin much...I went to Practice...the kids finished the song...then went to this telugu movie..one word..horrid! neway...I read this article by Arun Gandhi Called "The Importance Of Interdependence" from LA magazine...it was sooo awesome!! and sooo amazingly accurate...every word...! Most may find it borin!

The Importance of Interdependence

THE tragedy is that everyone in the world thinks they are "independent" individuals and that what they do is their own business. This is wrong. We are not independent, we are inter-dependent and inter-related and, therefore, the actions of one create a reaction in the other. Mahatma Gandhi said, "The world can produce enough for everyone's need, but not for everyone's greed." If limited resources of the world can't be equitably shared by all and if a few can grab a large portion, leaving a little for the rest, then those who are deprived will seek to fulfill their needs any way they can. This is not right, but when a person is hungry or deprived, right or wrong does not make much sense to them. Since greed has dominated our lifestyle for so many generations, it has caused considerable ill will between people within our country and outside, making the problem more complicated and almost intractable. So, instead of unrevealing the problem and trying to rectify our mistakes, we find it more convenient our domination of people through fear and violence. Then, we find it necessary to justify our acts so that our collective conscience does not hurt. We de-humanize people as 'vermin', 'enemies', 'criminals,' and other unkind words so that killing them becomes a right thing to do. Ancient civilizations have perished because of such shortsighted, self-centered policies. Our civilization too will one day perish the same way, unless we stop indulging in greed and start showing concern for our people's needs.

Sleep

ok so I didnt sleep last night...pulled an all nighter to finish up the journals and the essay...the funny thing was Soumya had work too..so we both literally stayed up finishin everythin!...that was awesome!! I felt soooo studious this mornin...I was almost done and Andy called at like 530...he was like r u crazy..wat were u thinkin...? hahah...I was thinkin of gettin my work done Ani...!! So I went to school and Bhargav thought I would like fall asleep on my feet or somethin...it was pretty good....I gave everythin! and while comin bak...I saw Sam...hmm cute...so he was great and I lovee his tattoos...ofcourse on him...! it was nice...then I and Bhargav hung out and we played Taboo...it was sooo much fun!! Yay!! Oh I updated my Xanga..so tell me wat u all think or wateva...oh yeah my dad is not coming this weekend...supposedly, he has work to do ...damn....that is so not fair!....neway...night...sweet dreams...!! Gunde Ninda Oosule, Nee Yeduta Nunte Mauname...

Random

Yay!! it was rainin today...well only drizzling..!! but that made my day...only for a while though...so I thought I did all the things that need to be done..right before class, Monique tells me he wanted Works Cited page...he neva asked for it for the first 10 essays...come on!! neway...so I went to do that and I was late...He gave me a look I think..one of those u dont follow rules when being told ones...My speech class presentation was pretty good...! I think I did well...hope I dont Jinx it..! Oh my dad is comin bak this weekend..Im sooo excited! and I dont need to be doing my college stuff like last time since its spring break...that sucked...Oh yeah, Kerry WON!!!! Edwards is droppin out...AWESOME! Im prolly the only one who gets excited over primary elections..hmm..neway, am I rambling?? maybe I am..Oh I am reading this article called All about shahrukh...its soo neat..This baby pic of shahrukh's...sooooooo adorable!!...neway, I finished 5 journals...25 more to go...I'll do them tom...sleepy...Night...Ghum Shudaaaa

Essay

I finished the essay so thats done..today, I wrote it in like 30 mins...so quickly...it was about gay rights..I guess I was following that in the elections discussion and stuff so I kept on writin crap...it was done..! Yay! This week I have like soooo much stuff due..its not even funny..I have like 5 essays and 30 journals due..Im goin to die by the end of the week..neway, It is spring break next week..can u believe that? I mean who gives spring break even b4 spring starts..colleges r soo stupid..life is just crazy...I dont know...it doesnt make ne damn sense sometimes..my life is just down right messed up...neway, doesnt matter...wateva