Separation

Two nights ago everything felt so foreign all of a sudden. I could hear unrecognizable music in the background that was never really there before. It was like closing a chapter of my life that was left unfinished and open for too long. It was a revelation! It felt as if the past which was full of holes suddenly closed in and filled up. The future is uncertain and all too short but at least it won't be spent convincing what should have or could have been done. All the thoughts seemed oh so fake and oh so real at the same time. Its funny the games your head plays when there is no one around to make sense of the nonsense and I am sure that about 75% of all this is nonsense. It happened to me then. The finality of the ending. It happened here and I heartlessly accepted. How ironic is it that the most loveless, heartless act could possibly be the moment of convincing the bond of love? How paradoxical and unfathomable. and the rest? The rest will work itself out or maybe that's what life is supposed to be. A change that is inevitable but not really revolutionizing. Over the last couple of weeks I managed to learn more and more to separate things. And this revelation helped further that cause. Silently my brain and heart moved in sync between the dark shadows that serve as separation between longing and expecting. My achievements from this venture started focusing on the light in the distance. My heart beat, an echo in the distance, hammering out a steady thump when the light is brighter. It's rhythm, a comfort to my soul, a sure reminder that it is working. My knowledge is helping my cause of separation.